2004-02-26
I hate how she teases me. Of course, she doesn't know she's doing it. I know, though. I hate the way she smiles at me with her head slightly turned. I hate the way she gets stressed out and hangs on my shoulder banging her head against a book or something. I hate the way she asks me questions, but then has to explain it to me. I hate it.And I love it.
But it's so awful that I love these things.
But I DO really hate them.
In a way...
Not really...
SHE'S A FREAKING GIRL!
I also hate the way she writes poetry. It's so well done and deep. It makes me want to write peorty like hers, but it never comes out right. She's too wonderful. How can I compete? How can i work out my feelings and figure out if I really am gay if she keeps sub-consciously toying with my emotions.
Stupid doubts of myself.