2004-06-24
My mom isn't coming back.She left a month or so ago to see he sister. And now she's not coming back. She called and told us so.
Rachel went to talk to her, but she wouldn't. She just asked her to contact the attorney.
And we all know what that means.
I knew people hated me, but my own mother...And I knew she was unhappy. I tried to amke it better. I did stuff when she asked and didn't complain so much.
She told rachel she was sick of being the old farmer's wife in the kitchen.
Rachel told me that she was smiling. As though she was so proud to have done it.
kiko hates me. I hate me. My mom hates me and my dad won't talk.
I feel that screaming does not suffice this situation.
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I wish Kiko was back. She's really the only one I can talk to. If I talked baout this with Ally, she would tell me a million sensible things to do, when all i want to do is cry. Marie would sit there and bite her nails and ask me what I was going to do. Not helping, but trying nonetheless.
Kiko listens and will ask questions.
My dad isn' talking much. Not that he was before she left-but still. Bobby hasn't been home since he went out driving this morning. We think he's staying at Rachel's.
I wish kiko was here so that I could talk to her.